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Rabu, 05 September 2007

Mithya bego

Aku emang bego at that time. Ngga mikir what it would to you, to us. I did think in my own selfish way. Aku tau it will hurt you, so I'm not letting you know. dan aku bener-bener ngelupain semuanya sampe baca SMS itu. dont start blaming, karena aku juga bisa nunjuk balik ke kamu. Ngingetin kamu what was it like back then. Tapi aku tau kita sama-sama belajar, Lus. And my objectives are getting clearer day by day. Aku sayang kamu dan aku akan berusaha untuk terus bikin kamu bahagia. Not hurt.

I miss you....I miss you..pingin ngerasain hangat tubuh kamu lagi, genggaman tangan kamu, bibir kamu, ur scent...
call me =)

Jumat, 06 Juli 2007

I am such a bitch,

aku seharusnya ikut seneng (emang aku seneng siyh, beneran), but i just feel so bad abt my self. i dont want anyone.

ah miiittt...

aku pengen ngilang aja, aku bego, aku bodoh, aku ga bisa apa-apa, im just too tired or too coward to fight the life.

aku mustinya malu ama kamu, you got hell a lot more burden,tapi u still stand up on your feet with your pride. Aku gampang banget ngedrop.

ifeeeelsolonely.

hiks.

i hate my self for being such a stupid, coward, lazy bitch.

maaf ya mit.

oh aku ga suka bilang maaf..(pengen nyengir,tapi ketahan...aku benci cengengesan terus..)

wanna die.eh ga deng..eh iya deng..ga deng..tau ah..

b gud to ur self ya..

Jumat, 22 Juni 2007

ayang..

pengen di deket kamu, bisa nyemangatin kamu terus.

bisa 'nyentuh' kamu terus. bisa dengerin nafas kamu, ato ngelus rambut kamu, gigit hidung kamu, dengerin kamu ketawa live.

ngeliat garis senyum kamu pas kamu nutup mata, u're so peaceful.(damn, aku lemas kalo ngeliat kamu begitu.U're beautiful)

Mit, there's no other girl. ga akan pernah ada..

just you, just you, only you.

SEMANGAT AYANG!

u'll make it. i know its hard (or maybe i dunno ) but i do believe kamu bisa! u're born fighter!

i LOVE you
ayang..

pengen di deket kamu, bisa nyemangatin kamu terus.

bisa 'nyentuh' kamu terus. bisa dengerin nafas kamu, ato ngelus rambut kamu, gigit hidung kamu, dengerin kamu ketawa live.

ngeliat garis senyum kamu pas kamu nutup mata, u're so peaceful.(damn, aku lemas kalo ngeliat kamu begitu.U're beautiful)

Mit, there's no other girl. ga akan pernah ada..

just you, just you, only you.

SEMANGAT AYANG!

u'll make it. i know its hard (or maybe i dunno ) but i do believe kamu bisa! u're born fighter!

i LOVE you

Jumat, 15 Juni 2007

Hahahaha..

Aku ga enak sendiri. Mikirin ketemuan ama kamu..yang kebayang semua yang mesum.

Padahal kamunya lagi stress – ribet ama skripsi, akunya horny…ah, jadi berasa …bego.hehehehehe.

Well Mit, I really do hope to see you tonight.

Walaupun cuma duduk, ketemu, ngeliat kamu, that’s fine.

Tapi ngarep bisa megang tangan kamu, nyium kamu dikit di bibir, meluk kamu, gesekan..Eeeeeeeehh miiiiiitttaaaaaaaa……hehhehehe

Anyway, aku td lg nelp pas kamu telp, udah ama Rani ya? Kok aku khawatir ya, I mean bukan jealous, tapi khawatir kamu kenapa-kenapa dijalan…amit2..

Ayannngg, aku beceeek…hehehehe

Rabu, 13 Juni 2007

**are you going to be my stranger in paradise?**

Mit. i dont feel good.

berasa jelek, gendyut =) jerawatan, ga worth

aku bosan kerja. aku bosan.aku bosan.nahan ini itu.

boseeeeen. ga bisa ketemu kamu. bosen musti nerima kenyataan, end upnya ga bagus.(skeptik bener! tau ahhhh)

pengen pergi.kabur.sabar.tau ah.

boleh sumpah serapah ga disini?

anjing.
anjing.
anjing.
anjing.
anjing.

ANNNNJEEEEENG!!!
9876543210..aku ga mau kuliah ah..
aku ga mau pulang ah..aku ga mau mandi ah..
aku ga mau berhubungan ama siapa-siapa ah.
aku mau jadi brengsek. aku mau jadi bego. aku mau ga punya harga diri.my fuckin self defense.my stupid pride.
wanna move.wanna quit.wanna stop.wanna run.
wanna stay.wanna leave.wanna fuck.wanna die.wanna live.
not gonna crack - lithium - nirvana - my girl - under the bridge.
wanna fuckin you in a lesbian way...=)

Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*Lu*

Aku ga suka.
Aku ga suka.
Aku ga suka.
Aku ga suka.
Aku bosan
Aku bosan Aku bosan
Aku bosan Aku bosan
Aku ga guna
Aku ga guna
Aku ga guna Aku ga guna
Aku ga guna Aku ga guna
Aku ga guna Aku ga guna
Aku ga guna Aku ga guna
Aku ga guna Aku ga guna
Aku ga gun Aku ga guna

Selasa, 12 Juni 2007

Mithya..hehehe..tadi jealousnya aku chat ama Wida? hehehehe, kan aku ga ngapa2in..ntar aku emailin aku ngobrol apa aja ama dia..

kebayang ga, gini aje, kita bisa jelous2an..apalagi megang2 tt orang lain..iiih..bisa meledak ato mati sekalian.. =)

kok Rhara bisa ga marah ya? aku siy udah bisa ngebayangin kebakarnya kalo kmu (amit22x) begitu. Opsinya, aku cabut dari situ ato aku bikin ribut. Tapi kayanya gengsi kalo dibikin ribut, paling cabut trs nunggu konfrontasi dari kamu. Kalo ga konfront juga ya..uum bikin ribut..heehehe ..ga deng.

ayang ud mau pulang..

dadah...

sayang kamu,sayang kamu, sayang kamu..
sabar sabar sabar..
tunggu kita selesai kuliah, terus..nikah deh..hehehehe
(gila agaknya...kekekeek)

Sabtu, 09 Juni 2007

Ayang..

aku abis nganterin Aning, mampir ke warnet bentar.. pengen pulang ke rumah =) Tapi ga bisa lama2. ntar dicari, kan pake motor pinjeman..hehehehhe
sebel, mau komen ga bisa...fs dudul,

jangan dong, tadi pagi aku cuma emosi, kayanya abis nangis, pileknya jadi ilang..hehehe

iya.enak kalo punya rumah bdua eh b'4 deng ama pohon mangga florida & billi the goat. (heran, peliharaan kok kambing, ntar lebaran haji kamu berkorban ya bil =), pemilik yang kejam... =p )

miss you, Mithya.

i do..

(Mit, ntar lg yuk - janji ga pake nangis deh,this time kalo nangis pun, tangis bahagia..hehehehe, dangdut abissss...Eleanor R aja bisa bertahan, masa kita ga..yang sabar ya mit - this for the 2 of us =) )

udah ah, m pulang.

hear u midnite..love you,love you,love you

(cepat pulang, mau makan apa? hehehhehe..aku kenyang tapi, makan kamu aja deh..)

Jumat, 08 Juni 2007

Dont want to hear it again

Masih keinget suara kamu nangis tadi pagi...kaya diiris-iris. Duh, kayaknya any time soon kalo mo AE aku bakalan inget mulu =(

Lus, aku jadi kayak diingetin kalo its not me who's the only one pingin disentuh kamu. Maaf ya...I cant do anything about it tadi pagi. Nga bisa beneran meluk kamu, cium kamu dan bilang "I'm here".

Sabar, sabar....(ini lebih buat diri aku sendiri =D).

Waiting for your call

Lagi-lagi aku di depan PC, online, cuma download video-video atau mp3 yang nga penting. Padahal harusnya ngerjain verbatim, hehehe..Ah, malem ini juga paling nga tidur. Abis itu bisa ngerjain verbatim =).

I keep thinking of you. Nungguin jam 12, nungguin freetalk, tapi juga takut kecewa. Jadinya HP aku tinggal di kamar =P

Lus, pingin deh kita beneran punya rumah bareng. Kalo aku udah kerja sih kayaknya aku yang bakalan tukang pulang malem atau mepet pagi, hehehe. Tapi knowing that kamu ada di rumah, pasti bikin aku betah di rumah. It's nice kalo di YM kita nanya, "Makan malem apa?" "Makan di rumah ngga?" "Lus, sayangku, nanti malem yuuk.." hehehe...

Atau kalo kamu pulang kantor, aku udah siapin air anget buat kamu mandi. Kalo mau aku pijetin pundaknya, atau pijet yang lainnya juga boleh. Pokoknya I just want you to come home to me. I want you to be mine only. Nga di share sama siapa pun.

Kalo weekend, kita ngabisin waktu di kamar aja. Sarapannya aku bawain ke tempat tidur. Then we'll make love for 2 whole days and stay naked under the blanket =P. Kalo bosen ama kamar, main-main ke pantai yang penuh pohon mangga dan bawa si Billi the goat (huweeee). Hihihi...
Cek hape dulu aaahhh..kamu nelpon ngga ya?

Waa..udah ada 5 missed call..udah dulu ya..aku mau pacaran sama kamu =)

While you sleep..

I paused to watch you as you slept, thinking about how beautiful and lovely you are, and about how lucky I am to have you. You were lying in a fetal position on your right side, your legs pulled up, you arms folded in front of your chest. The sheet was pulled between your leg, allowing an unhindered view of your long soft thigh . The scene ignited the fire inside me. I bent to caress you on the cheek. As you stirred, I spread kisses along your lips, neck, then to your breast where I lingered, gently squeezing every each one of them. You awoke and smiled at me as you ran your fingers through my hair. Then you rolled over onto your back, and I tugged the sheet away to drink in your lustful body. Aroused, my lips eagerly returned to your back, your neck and my hand cupped each and one of your breast. You were so aroused too that I could feel the rhymth of your heartbeat steadily climb as I continued to kissed you, my hand between your thigh, touching you. Your legs opened for me, and I slip between them, thrusting deeply as I can into you. As I make love to you, your breathing became frantic. You sighed and moaned as the pleasure burst through you. You were so hot. So full of energy. Suddenly you screamed out as I touched the right spot, and as I felt the trembling wrack your body, the pleasure burst through me as well, and I met you at the end. Afterward, I laid beside you, spent, and you gave me a grin. I knew you'd enjoyed being woken up this way.

Kamis, 07 Juni 2007

(sebenernya banyak kerjaan, tapi stuck di Ms.Word hehehehe)

Dunno what to write or say. But you’re in my mind.

Mit, waktu kamu bilang we’re completely strangers actually, aku setuju, wong kita ketemu fisik juga baru keitung jari, itu juga sebelah tangan (Rhara juga sempet ngomong gtu ama aku)

Hehehe Mit, Kamu inget ga, waktu kita ketemu yang ke-2?

Aku nelp, aku udah di depan..kamu bilang kamu dimana, karena mungkin kamu lupa aku yang mana..ehhehehe…me gawd Mit, kamu udah jadian, dan ga tau pacar kamu yang mana?..(itu 14 April..heheheheh). Aku ga offended kok tapi, aku ngerti. Jarak dari January ke april kan lama…apalagi buat orang dengan short memory syndromes kaya kita…Aku waktu itu cuma nyengir.

Then I saw you. Hey that’s my girl.

Aku berasa pendek banget thu Mit hehehe, terus kamu
kan nepuk kepala aku terus bilang ‘ah pendek”..hehehehhe (ah beberapa detik yang lalu, aku cuma diem, inget kamu, jadi kangen banget…I miss the way we kissed, I miss how my palms suited on yours. How we hugged. I miss your body scents. I miss the line of your lips when you smiled. I miiiiiiis youuuu)

Eh, boong deng, aku tarik lagi. You’re not a stranger for me.

I’ve shared you many things. Ga mungkin aku shared ke orang asing. Lefty for example =).

Oh Mit, aku kangen.

(aku takut kamu bosen denger aku ngomong kangen, terus bilang ngemeng aje..jadi aku mau nahan diri, biar ga terus2an ngomong terus kamu capek dengerinnya….)

Aku kangen.Oh Lus.Shut up. But I do

(jangan bandel ama Rhara ya, Mit…)

Hello

How small I am become each time you touch me in your mind. Every "Hello" that comes out of your sweet little lips, reminds me that I'm yours. I surrender my ego to you and only you, my love, my Lushka.

Apathy

Pingin ngerti, tapi nga bisa. Cuma pingin disentuh, dipeluk, disayang sama kamu. I'm trying, I'm trying!! I need to yell at you. It's the only way I could tell how painfull it is. Sekarang aku cuma pingin diam. Supaya ngga perlu nyakitin diriku atau kamu lagi.